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[11 Nov 2009|08:25am] |
Show opened.
Next, working on "Closer."
I'm Alice.
Doing a readthrough tonight.
...imma bad student.
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[01 Sep 2009|03:24pm] |
I've got Measure for Measure on my mind.
Best production ever.
Agh!
i want to see it again.
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| I am a mess. |
[09 Jul 2009|12:02pm] |
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I am a complete mess. I have no income.
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| e n d i n g |
[01 Jul 2009|11:04am] |
coming to the close of this trip
:) :)
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| This Week! |
[30 Jun 2009|05:32pm] |
STUPID and REALLY cool stuff happening this week.
UPS:
Kayla is in town and spent Pride Weekend with Christina and I.
Pride Weekend!!!
(Dyke March, Trans March, Pride Parade)
Bones Season Two is *awesome*
Going back to New Mexico in two weeks
Watched Juno
Saw Marjorie from ANTM!! :D :D
Jill turned 21!
Got a picture of Pheeb and it made me teary.
DOWNS:
Mi Via refuses to give me final paycheck ($1500)
I have $2.75 in my bank account
Can't figure out how to play "My Rollercoaster" by Kimya
Got a picture of Pheeb and it made me teary.
This week is better than awful, but its roughing me up. I had some really good Indian food leftovers for bkfast. Now I'm gonna go do laundry and clean up the apartment.
And work on a song.
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[24 Jun 2009|04:57pm] |
I'm trying to be brave 'cause when I'm brave
other people feel brave
but I feel like my heart is caving in
And I want to know everything that you do
So let's drive through the night
Put your hands on my heart
Is it alright for me to feel this way,
Put my head in your lap, the world will go away
Well well, we can go there, we can go anywhere
We can go there.
So you come, so you go
Tell me how hard how fast
Baby tell me how high I must go
Tell me what you want
Tell me what you need
Tell me how hard how fast
Baby tell me how high I must go
Tell me how high I must go
They can call me crazy if I fall
All the chance I need
Is one-in-a-million
And they can call me brilliant
If I succeed
Gravity is nothing to me
Im moving at the speed of sound
Im just gonna get my feet wet
Until I drown
The only thing growing is our history
Knock me down I'll get right back up again
I'll come back stronger than a powered up Pac-Man
It don't matter to me
'Cos all I wanted to be
Was a million miles from here
Somewhere more familiar
Oh my god, I can't believe it
I've never been this far away from home
it's not far to go it's not far at all
it's not far to go you're not far at all
pools out back waters so cold there's not much
said that I don't know
the difference between frozen hands and feet
you come right out and you ask me
nobody ever asks me
in the pool out back water to my chest
towel lying in the grass
it looks a lot worse than it seems but you know baby
that's just me
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| New Songito |
[23 Jun 2009|01:40pm] |
Twist
I saw you take out your pocket knife
And cut that puzzle piece into the shape you like
The picture only makes sense to you
What are you trying to prove?
You rearrange that paragraph
Until there were no clauses left
Only broken words with interjections
Your mind breaks down just like your punctuation
You can cut and paste your life away
But today don’t turn to her
And break down my words
I saw you take out that carving knife
And cut your heart into the shape you like
You shouldn’t play with that like you play with food
Who are you trying to prove?
You held your breath until
There was nothing left
Who can resuscitate
When all you do is asphyxiate?
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| New Songito |
[23 Jun 2009|01:39pm] |
Bella Bella
That little girl
Shook so hard in my arms
Her breath so scattered
She couldn’t say a thing
Put your feet on my feet
I’ll walk around with you
Jump on my back
I’ll do what I can
I’ll do what I can
Go on this hike with me
I’ll take care of everything
If I cant make you smile
I’ll hold you for a while
Jump in my car
Just don’t be sad
Its too hard
To make you laugh
When I hurt inside
When I hurt inside
That rock so lonely
And so close to my foot
Cant just walk by it
Gotta kick that little guy
All the way down
It makes my path
And it makes this talk
Easier to have without crying
Easier to have without crying
Go on this hike with me
I’ll take care of everything
If I can’t make you smile
I’ll hold you for a while
Its your birthday baby
Made you something nice
I won’t be there always
But if you like
I’ll stay by you
Till you fall asleep
Hope you have one good dream
Its your birthday baby
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[09 Jun 2009|12:43pm] |
So,
I heard Joan speak today when I called Look Talent.
Joan would be my new agent...
she sounded like
ESTELLE~!
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| New Song |
[03 Jun 2009|10:19pm] |
can you come out and play today
we're not so far apart
all you gotta do is meet me in the
middle of the united states
don't come too late
this is you
you're in california
how dare you leave me
all these fireworks
when you know damn well
you're my match
i wanna see you again before youre
gone and gone and gone
when we watched that first sun rise
i was so cold and you were warm
gone and gone and gone
oh how i want my lips to burn
this is you
you're in california
how dare you leave me
all these fireworks
when you know damn well
you're my match
all the drawings in the margins
are of you if you were gonna
go you should have gone right then
cuz
you were too close to me too long
and now i want to
learn a little more about this face
and learn a little more about this
voice that sounds so nice
when it says hi don't get me wrong
i still know that you're saying bye
this is you
you're in california
how dare you leave me all these
fireworks
when you know damn well you're my match
i can't know where
this is going
when there are so many places to go
but all i know is that you
interrupted my life and
this is you
you're in california
i stayed up late
just to be near you
how dare you leave me all these
fireworks
when you know damn well you're my match.
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| Just before my trip: |
[28 May 2009|01:00pm] |
Yesterday I made a lot of decisions, and did so so many things.
*Filled out FAFSA
*Called UNM to make sure I was still accepted for Fall 2009
*Looked at my courses
*Realized I came out of my year at Purchase with over a 4.0 GPA
*Requested my official transcript from Purchase
*Emailed Kristopher about my timesheets
*Called amazon.com and got a refund
*Found out where I can get an oil change in San Francisco
*Bought five small canvases
*Painted Drake's b-day canvas (of a fork heading toward a back)
*Called and spoke with Jason, Isabella and Julianna (and Sadie and Mom)
*Sent invites to lots of people about my set at Winning on Thurs, June 4
*And the most interesting thing....
I GOT A CALL FROM AN AGENCY AND THEY WANT TO REPRESENT ME!
:D :D :D
A month ago, I realized that I couldn't receive mail at the place where I was staying. All the responses from talent agencies come in the mail. So I called them all and asked if they could e-mail me instead. One of them responded, "I've got a pile in front of me and you're not in it. So how about you resubmit, my name is David, and I'll call you personally to let you know we're not interested?" ...
That same talent agency called me yesterday.
Look Talent, one of the best agencies in San Francisco.
I'm going to meet with them in the middle of June, after Christina and I get back from our road trip.
If I get work and can support myself here in the Bay Area, I might stay come August. I can't imagine how it will be without Christina here. I've spent every day since February with her, and I've talked to her or saw her every day for the first two months of knowing her.
Anyway, there was the agency thing.
Over the weekend, we went to Chico. It was great, we saw STOMP! It was AMAZING. I cried three times. I was so happy. :) :) We also went up to Salmon Hole? Bear Hole? I can't remember, but it was water and we took off our clothes and sat in the water in our underwear. We stayed with her friend Brent.
Last night we watched Doubt with Julia, and went to sleep early.
Today, I'm writing, going to work on guitar songs, might play in BART, and thinking about what I would do if I did stay here in California.
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| I got a... |
[21 May 2009|05:15pm] |
I got a new guitar! :)
Today I noticed that it's a Jay J.
that's the name of my guinea pig when i was a kid.
i'm getting addicted to queer as folk. i've gone through 16 episodes in the last few days.
yeah.
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| New Songito |
[14 May 2009|04:08pm] |
For the first time in a long time
i'm awake when I'm asleep because
i'm lying next to you and i'm
not scared like usual its because
i feel so safe that i'm up
in the dark in the night
don't you tell me that you need words
to understand what i'm saying when
i've got this look on my face that
speaks quite clearly to your
reddish-brown eyes
take me take me
try not to break and
i'll paint you a garden of stargazers
oh i'll tell you in shades of blue
i can't swim but i'd take on oceans for you
objects in mirrors are closer than
they appear but sometimes when
i am near i'm so far away
don't be afraid to reach out and grab me
and bring me back from daydreams and nightmares
don't you tell me that you need words
to understand what i'm saying when
i've got this look on my face that
speaks quite clearly to your
reddish-brown eyes
take me take me
try not to break and
i'll paint you a garden of stargazers
oh i'll tell you in shades of blue
i can't swim but i'd take on oceans for you
in the summertime i'll produce more
i'll offer cantaloupe on canvas at your door
when you care about someone so completely
you start to love them more than you hate your enemies
i could forget them all they'll get what they deserve
you can't save everyone try to stay calm don't get too hurt
i could forget them all they'll get what they deserve
you can't save everyone try to stay calm don't get too hurt
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| Street Musician |
[13 May 2009|10:30am] |
Yesterday I played in the subway and made 15 dollars. Here, people take whatever they can get. I've got blisters, and I've got money, and I'm satisfied.
Today I'm going to spend the afternoon writing. This evening I'm going to a ballet performance.
I awoke in the middle of the night to find Christina watching The Bone Collector. Seriously, at 3:30 in the morning. I fell asleep and had not so good dreams.
Going to go mail stuff to Maria to get it mailed to Kristopher to get it mailed to Mi Via. Blah.
Trip at end of month: Through Reno, Salt Lake City, Colorado Springs, and back down to Albuquerque. :)
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| Weekend |
[11 May 2009|02:18pm] |
Weekend was spent in Santa Cruz with Kate, Christina, and Laurel (Kate's muralist friend). Fabulous weekend. So pretty. Oh yeah, I quit my job to hang out with them. Kate took the blame. :)
She said I looked gayer and older.
On Saturday, my car was trashed when we went to go pick it up. Christina said the window was rolled down when she had gotten there.
The things that were stolen:
My Mal Blum CD.
My Jaclyn Falk CD.
My really old Jaclyn Falk CD.
Five Tegan and Sara CDs.
Mixes that Chloe and Jill made me.
My art supplies:
By "art supplies," I mean ALL of my art supplies. Oil, acrylic, watercolors, paint brushes, stencils, all of my stickers, my pencils, my colored pencils, all of my tapes for recording, crayons, markers, paper. At least $300 of supplies. Oh yeah. And ALL of my art. Three full sketchbooks, my graphic novel. My little brother's journal. Everything I have created was in the case they stole. It's all gone.
Conclusion: Dykes raided my car. And now all my work is in the trash.
We still went to SC, even though Christina tried to get us to stay. We rented a room when we got there, walked to the beach, and met with Kate and Laurel.
Friday, we walked around the Mission, Haight, and the Castro. Had dinner.
Sunday (yesterday) we went to the Mystery Spot. Got dizzy.
We're going back to New Mexico for the first week of June. Going to go to the zoo/aquarium for Isabella and Jason's birthday.
Oh! So, I've got an extended set at Winning (30 mins) on June 4th, I believe. On June 8th, I've got an hour set at Rockit Room. Today I'm going to go talk to People's Cafe in the Haight and get a 1/2 hour set for a coming Friday or Saturday night, which is very cool. Going to go play at the BART stop at Powell today, I think. Either that or I'm going to Dolores Park to play.
Going to go walk around Berkeley soon and see if I can book shows there.
As for right now, I'm going to go move my car from a "Wednesday" spot to a "Monday" spot so I don't get towed tomorrow during street cleaning.
Books I'm reading:
Christina and I are reading "Awkward and Definition"
I'm reading "The Passion"
Also, "Lullaby"
Recent Movies Watched:
Sunshine Cleaning
Volver
Antonia's Line
Domino
Philedelphia
I've gotta go make money from playing on the street so I can jump in on a few dance classes. Apparently I've gained a "bit of weight" and have a "stomach." . . .
"You know, when you're young you can unzip your pants when you sit down, but when you get older it just starts looking weird."
"But they're too tight when I sit down! And it's not me, it's the pants! I tell you!"
"Yeah, it's not YOU. That's what all fat people tell themselves. Their clothes are just TOO tiny, it's not them."
"...I wear a 2!!!"
I weigh 120 for the first time in about a year and some. F yes.
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| I knew it would happen, but STILL. |
[06 May 2009|11:11am] |
So I've been pretty careless with my guitar as of late. I mean, I've always been pretty careless with it. But since I got here, I've been throwing it everywhere. Last night I threw it off the bed, and when I awoke this morning I realized that by doing so I had broken my 4th string, so now I've gotta travel around to get somebody to restring it. Blah.
Went to an open mic last night, didn't play. A guy from Cambridge was pretty good, though, and there was a lesbian singing about the sacrifices people make for their vehicles out here.
I found out last night that all of the local theatres are affiliated with Theatre Bay Area, and to be able to perform ANYWHERE, I need to audition for their companies, but since they're ALL affiliated with this "group/union," there's no way for me to just be in a small play unless I'm part of this group. The audition deadline was May 1st, and even if I had auditioned, no matter; auditions are for NEXT season NEXT year, and I know 100% that I won't be here, since I'll be going back to New Mexico in August.
So that SUCKS. I'm going to Haight today to see if I can make a friend, since I haven't made any yet.
I've also got a disgruntled neighbor, "Jen," who gave me her business card so I can contact her and inform her when I will be playing so she can passive-aggressively tell me to SHUT UP.
Um Um Um Um.
skip around downtown
but don't you go telling me
that you don't know where
you're going
or where you have been.
I've been writing songs like crazy, but it all just sounds bad to me. This morning Christina told me that I was really good, hence why she liked me in the first place. My voice sounds bad, I just sound stupid pretty much. Ack. It's like when I'm acting, and I'm thinking, "Okay, so I'm decent at this, but I feel like a total idiot." I pick up my guitar and feel the same thing.
I'm missing courage.
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| April 2009 |
[16 Apr 2009|05:53pm] |
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I started my job yesterday. I'm sending out resumes for two agencies tomorrow morning. kimya show is on sunday. i've got a stupid penguin hat. i love san francisco.
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| So oh oh oh oh |
[29 Jul 2008|02:18pm] |
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Update...
Got a lot of headshots in today.
Kitties liked them. Tangerine chewed up the box they came in. Got all of my acting paperwork signed, so I'm officially with an agent and will be on the site soon.
Going to work in two hours.
Finished shooting for "Food for Thought" yesterday. I worked with Will Hartman. Twas fun. =)
Chloe is upset with me, I think. I'm not too sure though.
Getting my loft in two months, I think.
OooOoO and I got presents from Jill.
The end.
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| more on the kitties. |
[05 Jun 2008|02:39pm] |
so both of the kitties are chicks.
old news.
just thought i'd document.
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| So so so so sooooooooo. |
[10 May 2008|03:05pm] |
Jill is about to come home...in 4 days.
*foot massage*.
I've got work and work and kitties and a photoshoot to do, as well as a history channel documentary to audition for. keshet dance starts next week, which is nice.
i got a new guitar from chloe's girlfriend, savannah.
and i'm unna go play.
meow.
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