urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover jilllover jilllover 2009-12-29T19:08:20Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:140437 2009-12-29T19:08:20Z 2009-12-29T19:08:20Z ETCHASKETCH!? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:139922 2009-12-26T18:04:47Z 2009-12-26T18:04:47Z So, in San Antonio, been here four days now. I have met soooo many people in Christina's family. <br /><br />Last Sunday, I invited everyone over to my house: <br /><br />Dad<br />Rob<br />Mom<br />Grandma<br />Sarah<br />Sadie<br />Drake<br />Jason<br />Julianna<br />Isabella<br /><br />It was a ridiculous night. We watched Natl Lampoons Christmas Vacation and Edward Scissorhands. I got Bellabella a baby guitar, Jason a book, and Julianna a very pretty green coat. <br /><br />My dad has been sober for months, now. Last night on the phone he told me that me, Sadie and Drake are his reason for living. I'm so proud of him. I think he is still shop-lifting, but he is clean. He told me that he went on a date and both him and his date are kleptos. They went to the store and put everything they would like to steal in a cart, but didn't still anything. I thought it was cute. <br /><br />Steven is watching cats this week, my mom watching them next week. <br /><br />In March: <br /><br />New Orleans for ORS conference with Christina. <br />San Antonio for wedding<br /><br />April: <br /><br />San Antonio for Fiesta<br /><br /><br />Oh yeah. I got maracas and a ukulele. <br /><br />And a Music Listography book and blossoming tea set. <br /><br />Hot chocolate cups...clothes...The Office Season 4...<br /><br />I had a dream last night that i exorcised everything in my life. <br /><br />Probably because we got my mom a Regean doll for Christmas. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:139569 2009-12-14T18:06:30Z 2009-12-14T18:06:30Z And I was on Crash last Friday. I'm also on the season finale, next Friday. <br /><br />I'm eligible for SAG. <br /><br />:D :D :D<br /><br />...I was a stoned Manson cult-member, kissing girls. Go figure. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:138885 2009-12-07T19:44:18Z 2009-12-07T19:44:18Z It's the end of my first semester back in school...<br /><br />Let's see. My cats have matching sweaters.<br /><br />Classes? I'm getting straight Bs. One teacher hates me, another teacher enjoys me, two teachers don't know who I am. I feel like a slacker. I am a slacker. Working on final papers. Next semester I'll try. The problem is that I'm either apathetic towards my schoolwork or I'm a pretentious overachiever. =( <br /><br />Next Semester: <br /><br />ANTHRO Human Evolution <br />ANTHRO Human Evolution Lab<br />ANTHRO Cultures of the World<br />THEA Voice and Movement <br />THEA Acting II<br />THEA Practicum<br />ENG Early Shakespeare<br /><br />Going to San Antonio for winter vacation. Working on Closer starting in March. Working on songs again, for the first time in a while. Talked to Kelle. <br /><br />Christina and I saw Rent with Kayla. Roger couldn't sing. Chloe was like, "whyyy?" <br /><br />Continuing to work on finals. <br /><br />Byeee. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:138498 2009-11-11T15:25:53Z 2009-11-11T15:25:53Z Show opened. <br /><br />Next, working on "Closer." <br /><br />I'm Alice. <br /><br />Doing a readthrough tonight. <br /><br /><br /><br /><br />...imma bad student. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:138160 2009-09-01T21:25:47Z 2009-09-01T21:25:47Z I've got Measure for Measure on my mind. <br /> <br />Best production ever. <br /><br />Agh! <br /><br />i want to see it again. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:135647 2009-07-09T18:03:29Z 2009-07-09T18:03:29Z I am a complete mess. I have no income. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:134804 2009-07-01T17:05:19Z 2009-07-01T17:05:19Z coming to the close of this trip <br /><br />:) :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:134453 2009-06-30T23:37:24Z 2009-06-30T23:37:24Z STUPID and REALLY cool stuff happening this week. <br /><br />UPS: <br /><br />Kayla is in town and spent Pride Weekend with Christina and I. <br />Pride Weekend!!!<br />(Dyke March, Trans March, Pride Parade)<br />Bones Season Two is *awesome*<br />Going back to New Mexico in two weeks<br />Watched Juno<br />Saw Marjorie from ANTM!! :D :D <br />Jill turned 21! <br />Got a picture of Pheeb and it made me teary. <br /><br />DOWNS: <br /><br />Mi Via refuses to give me final paycheck ($1500)<br />I have $2.75 in my bank account<br />Can't figure out how to play "My Rollercoaster" by Kimya <br />Got a picture of Pheeb and it made me teary. <br /><br /><br /><br />This week is better than awful, but its roughing me up. I had some really good Indian food leftovers for bkfast. Now I'm gonna go do laundry and clean up the apartment. <br /><br />And work on a song. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:134177 2009-06-24T23:07:22Z 2009-06-24T23:07:22Z I'm trying to be brave 'cause when I'm brave<br />other people feel brave<br />but I feel like my heart is caving in<br /><br />And I want to know everything that you do<br />So let's drive through the night<br />Put your hands on my heart<br /><br />Is it alright for me to feel this way,<br />Put my head in your lap, the world will go away<br />Well well, we can go there, we can go anywhere<br />We can go there.<br /><br />So you come, so you go<br />Tell me how hard how fast<br />Baby tell me how high I must go<br />Tell me what you want<br />Tell me what you need<br />Tell me how hard how fast<br />Baby tell me how high I must go<br />Tell me how high I must go<br /><br /><br />They can call me crazy if I fall<br />All the chance I need<br />Is one-in-a-million<br />And they can call me brilliant<br />If I succeed<br />Gravity is nothing to me<br />Im moving at the speed of sound<br />Im just gonna get my feet wet<br />Until I drown<br /><br />The only thing growing is our history<br />Knock me down I'll get right back up again<br />I'll come back stronger than a powered up Pac-Man<br />It don't matter to me<br />'Cos all I wanted to be<br />Was a million miles from here<br />Somewhere more familiar<br />Oh my god, I can't believe it<br />I've never been this far away from home<br /><br />it's not far to go it's not far at all<br />it's not far to go you're not far at all<br />pools out back waters so cold there's not much<br />said that I don't know<br />the difference between frozen hands and feet<br />you come right out and you ask me<br />nobody ever asks me<br />in the pool out back water to my chest<br />towel lying in the grass<br />it looks a lot worse than it seems but you know baby<br />that's just me urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:133145 2009-06-23T19:40:30Z 2009-06-23T19:40:30Z Twist<br /><br />I saw you take out your pocket knife<br />And cut that puzzle piece into the shape you like<br />The picture only makes sense to you<br />What are you trying to prove? <br /><br /> You rearrange that paragraph<br />Until there were no clauses left<br />Only broken words with interjections<br />Your mind breaks down just like your punctuation <br /><br />You can cut and paste your life away <br />But today don’t turn to her <br />And break down my words <br /><br />I saw you take out that carving knife<br />And cut your heart into the shape you like <br />You shouldn’t play with that like you play with food<br />Who are you trying to prove? <br /><br />You held your breath until <br />There was nothing left<br />Who can resuscitate <br />When all you do is asphyxiate? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:133095 2009-06-23T19:40:05Z 2009-06-23T19:40:05Z Bella Bella <br /><br />That little girl <br />Shook so hard in my arms<br />Her breath so scattered<br />She couldn’t say a thing<br /><br />Put your feet on my feet<br />I’ll walk around with you <br />Jump on my back <br />I’ll do what I can<br />I’ll do what I can<br /><br />Go on this hike with me <br />I’ll take care of everything<br />If I cant make you smile<br />I’ll hold you for a while <br /> <br />Jump in my car <br />Just don’t be sad<br />Its too hard<br />To make you laugh <br />When I hurt inside <br />When I hurt inside <br /><br />That rock so lonely<br />And so close to my foot<br />Cant just walk by it<br />Gotta kick that little guy<br /><br />All the way down <br />It makes my path<br />And it makes this talk <br />Easier to have without crying<br />Easier to have without crying <br /><br /><br />Go on this hike with me<br />I’ll take care of everything<br />If I can’t make you smile<br />I’ll hold you for a while<br />Its your birthday baby <br />Made you something nice<br />I won’t be there always <br />But if you like <br /><br />I’ll stay by you <br />Till you fall asleep <br />Hope you have one good dream<br />Its your birthday baby urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:132686 2009-06-09T18:44:28Z 2009-06-09T18:44:28Z So, <br />I heard Joan speak today when I called Look Talent. <br />Joan would be my new agent...<br /><br /><br />she sounded like<br /><br />ESTELLE~! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:132416 2009-06-04T04:28:21Z 2009-06-04T04:28:21Z can you come out and play today <br />we're not so far apart<br />all you gotta do is meet me in the <br />middle of the united states<br />don't come too late<br /><br />this is you<br />you're in california<br />how dare you leave me<br />all these fireworks<br />when you know damn well <br />you're my match<br /><br />i wanna see you again before youre<br />gone and gone and gone<br />when we watched that first sun rise<br />i was so cold and you were warm<br /><br />gone and gone and gone<br />oh how i want my lips to burn<br /><br />this is you <br />you're in california<br />how dare you leave me <br />all these fireworks<br />when you know damn well <br />you're my match<br /><br />all the drawings in the margins<br />are of you if you were gonna<br />go you should have gone right then<br />cuz <br />you were too close to me too long <br />and now i want to<br />learn a little more about this face<br />and learn a little more about this<br />voice that sounds so nice <br />when it says hi don't get me wrong <br />i still know that you're saying bye<br /><br /><br />this is you <br />you're in california<br />how dare you leave me all these<br />fireworks<br />when you know damn well you're my match<br /><br />i can't know where<br />this is going <br />when there are so many places to go<br />but all i know is that you <br />interrupted my life and <br /><br />this is you<br />you're in california <br />i stayed up late<br />just to be near you<br />how dare you leave me all these<br />fireworks<br />when you know damn well you're my match. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:132322 2009-05-28T19:28:04Z 2009-05-28T19:28:04Z Yesterday I made a lot of decisions, and did so so many things. <br />*Filled out FAFSA<br />*Called UNM to make sure I was still accepted for Fall 2009<br />*Looked at my courses<br />*Realized I came out of my year at Purchase with over a 4.0 GPA<br />*Requested my official transcript from Purchase<br />*Emailed Kristopher about my timesheets<br />*Called amazon.com and got a refund<br />*Found out where I can get an oil change in San Francisco<br />*Bought five small canvases<br />*Painted Drake's b-day canvas (of a fork heading toward a back)<br />*Called and spoke with Jason, Isabella and Julianna (and Sadie and Mom)<br />*Sent invites to lots of people about my set at Winning on Thurs, June 4<br />*And the most interesting thing....<br /><br />I GOT A CALL FROM AN AGENCY AND THEY WANT TO REPRESENT ME!<br /><br />:D :D :D<br /><br />A month ago, I realized that I couldn't receive mail at the place where I was staying. All the responses from talent agencies come in the mail. So I called them all and asked if they could e-mail me instead. One of them responded, "I've got a pile in front of me and you're not in it. So how about you resubmit, my name is David, and I'll call you personally to let you know we're not interested?" ...<br /><br />That same talent agency called me yesterday. <br />Look Talent, one of the best agencies in San Francisco. <br />I'm going to meet with them in the middle of June, after Christina and I get back from our road trip. <br /><br />If I get work and can support myself here in the Bay Area, I might stay come August. I can't imagine how it will be without Christina here. I've spent every day since February with her, and I've talked to her or saw her every day for the first two months of knowing her. <br /><br />Anyway, there was the agency thing. <br /><br />Over the weekend, we went to Chico. It was great, we saw STOMP! It was AMAZING. I cried three times. I was so happy. :) :) We also went up to Salmon Hole? Bear Hole? I can't remember, but it was water and we took off our clothes and sat in the water in our underwear. We stayed with her friend Brent. <br /><br />Last night we watched Doubt with Julia, and went to sleep early. <br /><br />Today, I'm writing, going to work on guitar songs, might play in BART, and thinking about what I would do if I did stay here in California. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:131794 2009-05-21T23:19:48Z 2009-05-21T23:19:48Z I got a new guitar! :) <br />Today I noticed that it's a Jay J. <br /><br />that's the name of my guinea pig when i was a kid. <br /><br />i'm getting addicted to queer as folk. i've gone through 16 episodes in the last few days. <br /><br />yeah. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:131302 2009-05-14T22:13:37Z 2009-05-14T22:13:37Z For the first time in a long time<br />i'm awake when I'm asleep because <br />i'm lying next to you and i'm <br />not scared like usual its because<br />i feel so safe that i'm up <br />in the dark in the night<br /><br />don't you tell me that you need words<br />to understand what i'm saying when <br />i've got this look on my face that<br />speaks quite clearly to your <br />reddish-brown eyes<br /><br />take me take me <br />try not to break and <br />i'll paint you a garden of stargazers<br />oh i'll tell you in shades of blue<br />i can't swim but i'd take on oceans for you<br /><br />objects in mirrors are closer than <br />they appear but sometimes when <br />i am near i'm so far away<br />don't be afraid to reach out and grab me<br />and bring me back from daydreams and nightmares<br /><br />don't you tell me that you need words<br />to understand what i'm saying when <br />i've got this look on my face that<br />speaks quite clearly to your <br />reddish-brown eyes<br /><br />take me take me <br />try not to break and <br />i'll paint you a garden of stargazers<br />oh i'll tell you in shades of blue<br />i can't swim but i'd take on oceans for you<br /><br />in the summertime i'll produce more<br />i'll offer cantaloupe on canvas at your door<br /><br />when you care about someone so completely <br />you start to love them more than you hate your enemies<br />i could forget them all they'll get what they deserve<br />you can't save everyone try to stay calm don't get too hurt<br /><br />i could forget them all they'll get what they deserve<br />you can't save everyone try to stay calm don't get too hurt urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:130935 2009-05-13T18:04:15Z 2009-05-13T18:04:15Z Yesterday I played in the subway and made 15 dollars. Here, people take whatever they can get. I've got blisters, and I've got money, and I'm satisfied. <br /><br />Today I'm going to spend the afternoon writing. This evening I'm going to a ballet performance. <br /><br />I awoke in the middle of the night to find Christina watching The Bone Collector. Seriously, at 3:30 in the morning. I fell asleep and had not so good dreams. <br /><br />Going to go mail stuff to Maria to get it mailed to Kristopher to get it mailed to Mi Via. Blah. <br /><br /><br />Trip at end of month: Through Reno, Salt Lake City, Colorado Springs, and back down to Albuquerque. :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:130746 2009-05-11T20:35:19Z 2009-05-11T20:35:19Z Weekend was spent in Santa Cruz with Kate, Christina, and Laurel (Kate's muralist friend). Fabulous weekend. So pretty. Oh yeah, I quit my job to hang out with them. Kate took the blame. :) <br /><br />She said I looked gayer and older. <br /><br />On Saturday, my car was trashed when we went to go pick it up. Christina said the window was rolled down when she had gotten there. <br />The things that were stolen: <br />My Mal Blum CD. <br />My Jaclyn Falk CD. <br />My really old Jaclyn Falk CD. <br />Five Tegan and Sara CDs. <br />Mixes that Chloe and Jill made me. <br />My art supplies: <br /> By "art supplies," I mean ALL of my art supplies. Oil, acrylic, watercolors, paint brushes, stencils, all of my stickers, my pencils, my colored pencils, all of my tapes for recording, crayons, markers, paper. At least $300 of supplies. Oh yeah. And ALL of my art. Three full sketchbooks, my graphic novel. My little brother's journal. Everything I have created was in the case they stole. It's all gone. <br />Conclusion: Dykes raided my car. And now all my work is in the trash. <br /><br />We still went to SC, even though Christina tried to get us to stay. We rented a room when we got there, walked to the beach, and met with Kate and Laurel.<br />Friday, we walked around the Mission, Haight, and the Castro. Had dinner. <br />Sunday (yesterday) we went to the Mystery Spot. Got dizzy. <br /><br />We're going back to New Mexico for the first week of June. Going to go to the zoo/aquarium for Isabella and Jason's birthday. <br /><br />Oh! So, I've got an extended set at Winning (30 mins) on June 4th, I believe. On June 8th, I've got an hour set at Rockit Room. Today I'm going to go talk to People's Cafe in the Haight and get a 1/2 hour set for a coming Friday or Saturday night, which is very cool. Going to go play at the BART stop at Powell today, I think. Either that or I'm going to Dolores Park to play. <br /><br />Going to go walk around Berkeley soon and see if I can book shows there. <br /><br />As for right now, I'm going to go move my car from a "Wednesday" spot to a "Monday" spot so I don't get towed tomorrow during street cleaning. <br /><br />Books I'm reading: <br />Christina and I are reading "Awkward and Definition"<br />I'm reading "The Passion"<br />Also, "Lullaby" <br /><br />Recent Movies Watched: <br />Sunshine Cleaning<br />Volver<br />Antonia's Line<br />Domino<br />Philedelphia<br /><br />I've gotta go make money from playing on the street so I can jump in on a few dance classes. Apparently I've gained a "bit of weight" and have a "stomach." . . . <br /><br />"You know, when you're young you can unzip your pants when you sit down, but when you get older it just starts looking weird."<br /><br />"But they're too tight when I sit down! And it's not me, it's the pants! I tell you!"<br /><br />"Yeah, it's not YOU. That's what all fat people tell themselves. Their clothes are just TOO tiny, it's not them." <br /><br />"...I wear a 2!!!"<br /><br />I weigh 120 for the first time in about a year and some. F yes. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:130442 2009-05-06T17:23:28Z 2009-05-06T17:23:28Z So I've been pretty careless with my guitar as of late. I mean, I've always been pretty careless with it. But since I got here, I've been throwing it everywhere. Last night I threw it off the bed, and when I awoke this morning I realized that by doing so I had broken my 4th string, so now I've gotta travel around to get somebody to restring it. Blah. <br /><br />Went to an open mic last night, didn't play. A guy from Cambridge was pretty good, though, and there was a lesbian singing about the sacrifices people make for their vehicles out here. <br /><br />I found out last night that all of the local theatres are affiliated with Theatre Bay Area, and to be able to perform ANYWHERE, I need to audition for their companies, but since they're ALL affiliated with this "group/union," there's no way for me to just be in a small play unless I'm part of this group. The audition deadline was May 1st, and even if I had auditioned, no matter; auditions are for NEXT season NEXT year, and I know 100% that I won't be here, since I'll be going back to New Mexico in August. <br /><br />So that SUCKS. I'm going to Haight today to see if I can make a friend, since I haven't made any yet. <br /><br />I've also got a disgruntled neighbor, "Jen," who gave me her business card so I can contact her and inform her when I will be playing so she can passive-aggressively tell me to SHUT UP. <br /><br />Um Um Um Um.<br /><br />skip around downtown<br />but don't you go telling me <br />that you don't know where <br />you're going <br />or where you have been. <br /><br />I've been writing songs like crazy, but it all just sounds bad to me. This morning Christina told me that I was really good, hence why she liked me in the first place. My voice sounds bad, I just sound stupid pretty much. Ack. It's like when I'm acting, and I'm thinking, "Okay, so I'm decent at this, but I feel like a total idiot." I pick up my guitar and feel the same thing. <br /><br />I'm missing courage. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:127595 2009-04-16T23:54:46Z 2009-04-16T23:54:46Z I started my job yesterday. I'm sending out resumes for two agencies tomorrow morning. kimya show is on sunday. i've got a stupid penguin hat. i love san francisco. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:125729 2008-07-29T20:22:40Z 2008-07-29T20:22:40Z Update...<br /><br />Got a lot of headshots in today. <br />Kitties liked them. Tangerine chewed up the box they came in. Got all of my acting paperwork signed, so I'm officially with an agent and will be on the site soon. <br /><br />Going to work in two hours. <br /><br />Finished shooting for "Food for Thought" yesterday. I worked with Will Hartman. Twas fun. =) <br /><br />Chloe is upset with me, I think. I'm not too sure though. <br /><br />Getting my loft in two months, I think. <br /><br />OooOoO and I got presents from Jill. <br /><br /><br />The end. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:125212 2008-06-05T20:36:31Z 2008-06-05T20:36:31Z so both of the kitties are chicks. <br />old news. <br /><br />just thought i'd document. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:125029 2008-05-10T21:08:37Z 2008-05-10T21:08:37Z Jill is about to come home...in 4 days. <br /><br />*foot massage*. <br /><br />I've got work and work and kitties and a photoshoot to do, as well as a history channel documentary to audition for. keshet dance starts next week, which is nice. <br /><br />i got a new guitar from chloe's girlfriend, savannah. <br /><br />and i'm unna go play. <br /><br />meow. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jilllover:124809 2008-05-03T23:25:40Z 2008-05-03T23:26:13Z <img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v204/white_chedda/kittylove-1.jpg"><br /><br />so bezier definitely looks weird enough. <br />and tangerine looks like a little gay man.